Life's impermanent

From Wikipedia:

"A virtuous circle or a vicious circle is a complex of events that reinforces itself through a feedback loop toward greater instability. A virtuous circle (or virtuous cycle) has favorable results, and a vicious circle (or vicious cycle) has deleterious results. A virtuous circle can transform into a vicious circle if eventual negative feedback is ignored."


Usually life happens deviously. We never know what is going to happen or what is going to change or, going further, where it's gonna stop. By "It" I mean this bitch we call life. 'Cause sorry if I hurt your optimistic and pollyanish views about it, but something that is worth of trust presents some kind of permanence, perpetuity, durability, imperishability (yes, I know how to use a Thesaurus). How could you possibly trust something that changes completely from today to tomorrow? That's almost a woman PMSing - you never know what's about to show up: would it be the crying needy girl or the bitchy moany whining monster? The problem is that besides being untrustworthy and devious, life sometimes decides to play tricks on us, poor human race. That's where the virtuous/vicious circles say hello to everybody. That's funny how situations may happen twice after years and then happen again after more years. It seems that either life wants to show that you're dumb enough not to having learned anything from the first time and forces you to go through a similar situation again as in "it's now or never you moron" or that Karma thing is really true and you simply have to go through that ordeal from time to time. By ordeal I mean any kind of dilemma: professional, amouréuse, whatever. Then you remember: "oh, this has already happened to me". But the decision you took one year ago is not the same kind you need to take now because even though the situations are similar and you're living in some sort of virtuous circle, life, that bitch, has changed. And so have you.

Last year I wrote a text where I say that life's very impermanent. I'm not going through exactly the same situations this year, some things have, thank God, changed. But the paragraph that talks about impermanency is so true. Life may change in a second and you may be caught short-handed and not have the faintest idea about what to do. But then you stop. Cry. Think. Curse again. And decide. Then just adapt. Or readapt. Or reinvent yourself.

Unfortunately I can't say that "My way" would be having God choosing for me. I already believe in destiny, that's enough. Our choices are of our own responsibility and knowing how to cope with them is the only possible way of turning life into less of a bitch and more of a Grandma with a plate of warm cookies, as I've written in another text.

So, that's it. Yes, life changes suddenly. Yes, the things you believed to be certain are not, never. Yes, life can be interesting, despite deviousness and circles and repetitions and impermanence. And, finally, yes, life's a bitch, but, let's be honest: it's better a bitch than a nun.